The sun falls in fragments through the window.
And my heart is in fragments inside me.
The light continues to shine at the window.
And the inner light inside me
shines through like a window.
The light that holds my heart together
is leaving me
for the eastern shore.
Where beings have left before me
never to return.
The sound of a song on a distinct flute
plays to harm me.
I cannot be blind,
but all i can do is feel.
You ask me what the justice of love is
and it is but a song
that plays through the dark night.
What is love lost?
But a child lost.
I have no answers
but I do not seek the beginning of answers anymore.
I hear the voices of the many dead
who sigh out at me.
But i grip my face in my hands
in a place no one can see.
There is a place beyond heaven and hell
Where you still exist to me.
Over and over and over.
It is home
and it is true.
Through the many guises
of who you used to be,
I pretend I am where you still are,
but i have fallen without ceremony.
An instinct for pain tames me.
It is the only thing that can tame me.
Where my trust fails,
A memory of you holds me together.
It is the only thing that holds me
from past to future.
And in this sadness I bow down
Before great angels
who knew what love can do
and still they yield
to a higher power.
And even if you did not love me
What small part of me you did love
I commit to a higher power.
because your touch redeems me.