Without fear

The sun falls in fragments through the window.

And my heart is in fragments inside me.

The light continues to shine at the window.

And the inner light inside me

shines through like a window.

The light that holds my heart together

is leaving me

for the eastern shore.

Where beings have left before me

never to return.

The sound of a song on a distinct flute

plays to harm me.

I cannot be blind,

but all i can do is feel.

You ask me what the justice of love is

and it is but a song

that plays through the dark night.

What is love lost?

But a child lost.

I have no answers

but I do not seek the beginning of answers anymore.

I hear the voices of the many dead

who sigh out at me.

But i grip my face in my hands

in a place no one can see.

There is a place beyond heaven and hell

Where you still exist to me.

Over and over and over.

It is home

and it is true.

Through the many guises

of who you used to be,

I pretend I am where you still are,

but i have fallen without ceremony.

Without fear.

An instinct for pain tames me.

It is the only thing that can tame me.

Where my trust fails,

A memory of you holds me together.

It is the only thing that holds me

from past to future.

And in this sadness I bow down

Before great angels

who knew what love can do

and still they yield

to a higher power.

And even if you did not love me

What small part of me you did love

I commit to a higher power.

because your touch redeems me.